Full moon, full life.

[saffronhare]

I'm usually not in the habit of tracking changes in my life along with the cycles of the moon, but once in a while it really stands out. Tonight is the full moon; by the time next month's full moon rolls around, big changes will be manifesting -- changes born of patience and prayer...manifested by hard work, sheer luck, and the grace of the gods.


One of the big physical shifts is our move to Gardner. I've gotten to like the place and its personality. Mostly, I've gotten to know the people diermuid interacts with in the community. They're nice folks, which is lucky because -- through all six kids -- I'll probably be interacting with a bunch of them too. There's a lot to get used to, but fortunately Gardner only seems like the edge of nowhere. It's easy enough to get out an around, so the move is not likely to have much of an effect on my relatively non-existent social life.*


Emotionally, it's wild and wonderful to be moving into marriage again, too. I'm grateful for the people who have stayed in my life through all these changes, and for the new people I'm discovering can love my kids and add to the good stuff happening in all our lives. With luck and care, nobody will end up as a case study or a story in anybody else's therapy sessions. :)

Lots of people have asked, so here's the scoop: We're getting married quietly, and in stages. There's going to be a small family ceremony (as in just the kids and diermuid's parents) sometime around Memorial Day, with a jump of the paperwork taken care of ahead of time. There's likely to be some sort of picnic later this summer to celebrate with friends and community. The eldest daughters think it should be at Shawnee Mission Park, but we really can't envision or plan it just yet. What we do know for sure is that there will be cake, dammit.

We've both had weddings before, see, and there's no real desire in either of us to have things we felt like we didn't get the first time. Right now, our attention and resources are very much focused on tending to our children and the household.**

Also, as diermuid happily points out, that means TWO wedding nights and TWO cakes. (If one counts jumping the paperwork, then it's THREE of each, which is all Druidic and stuff.)


Job-wise, things are proceeding, if not as swiftly as I want and need them to. Yargh. Rejection emails aren't pleasant to receive and I'm getting dangerously close to the edge of my financial buffer zone. It's been just over three months. I realize lots of folks have been unemployed much longer, and that makes me very nervous. Aiming high is hard. I'm not sure it's a comfort to know that aiming lower will not be helpful, either.

In positive news, the freelance client has moved past just sending me a job description. Last week, we started talking about compensation, and hiring discussions are happening at an executive level. I'm finding it difficult not to pray for THIS THING to happen, even though I know it's wiser not to impose my will on the situation. Instead, I keep praying for the RIGHT THING to happen, but really soon pretty please.



* And here is princessboredom's best argument from a car, aside from the fact that she's a generally awesome person who has a job and stuff. See, she'll need a lot more ability to move between my place and her dad's -- ultimately spending more of her time with agrnmn and stregalunae -- because it's important to her NOT to transfer high schools and we're doing our best to support that. She seems to be convinced that the Car Fairy is going to come at any time. ::sigh:: Workin' on that, but there will be no financing of any sort until I can produce a pay stub, you know?

** I've gotta say: Combining two households into one house is really testing my mad de-cluttering skillz. SRSLY.



I think that's most of what's on my mind right now. I haven't been posting a lot, because, hey, BUSY. But I do like you all and don't intend to lock anybody out of what's happening. Please feel free to ping me privately or comment here if there's anything else you want me to dish about to know about.

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