Need to let this turn.
Oct. 5th, 2005 03:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
saffronhareBurning, churning anger isn't doing me any good.
Need to let the bile from this day at work fuel my drive to make Nine Fires profitable enough to quit for good.
Need to let disgust at the political climate inspire me to either participate in the process in a loud and resonant way, or simply start researching how we might move the clan to Canada instead.
So far, I'm not giving in to the desire to crush people around me. Or to walk out and go drinking. Having a very hard time transmuting this energy into something positive and healthy for me and my world. So far, the best I've got is an intense desire for really brutal sex. With just about anyone.
Gods have mercy on me. How does one construct a prayer out of that?
Need to let the bile from this day at work fuel my drive to make Nine Fires profitable enough to quit for good.
Need to let disgust at the political climate inspire me to either participate in the process in a loud and resonant way, or simply start researching how we might move the clan to Canada instead.
So far, I'm not giving in to the desire to crush people around me. Or to walk out and go drinking. Having a very hard time transmuting this energy into something positive and healthy for me and my world. So far, the best I've got is an intense desire for really brutal sex. With just about anyone.
Gods have mercy on me. How does one construct a prayer out of that?
