molecular agitation
Jan. 10th, 2012 09:33 amI remember reading something, somewhere, about molecular agitation being a precursor to EVOLUTION of some sort -- cell division, growth, whatever.
EGAD are we ever feeling that at home with Princess Boredom these days. She is so very ready to be out on her own, and YET she's nervous about it. Makes for very...well, agitated interactions at home. It's like when a seven-year-old is struggling to ride a two-wheeler for the first time. She's nervous and wants you there to hold the seat and run alongside her, but she doesn't really want you to help her. Except when she does. ACK.
These vascillations between glorious revolution and crippling dependence are giving me emotional whiplash. Maybe it's part of the process? You know, nature making iteasier to let go of her because I desperately need a fucking break? (I say this with love.)
She's been accepted to the University of Kansas, the University of Southern Florida, and Providence College. She's had a campus visit to USF and the offer of some scholarship funds. She's declined a campus visit to KU since it's so familiar, but they've offered her a little bit of money as well. Providence College accepted her on "early action" and are evaluating some financial support as well. She's heading out for a visit there the second weekend in Feburary, where she'll get to attend a Big East basketball game (PC vs. USF, of all things) and receive some hospitality from my aunt.
No word yet from the University of Rhode Island. Now it's all about money, really. I want her to go AWAY to college, not because I want to get rid of her. Truly, it's about wanting her to break orbit. So we'll see. In the meantime, she's chomping at the bit, WANTING things and making us more than a little crazy.
EGAD are we ever feeling that at home with Princess Boredom these days. She is so very ready to be out on her own, and YET she's nervous about it. Makes for very...well, agitated interactions at home. It's like when a seven-year-old is struggling to ride a two-wheeler for the first time. She's nervous and wants you there to hold the seat and run alongside her, but she doesn't really want you to help her. Except when she does. ACK.
These vascillations between glorious revolution and crippling dependence are giving me emotional whiplash. Maybe it's part of the process? You know, nature making iteasier to let go of her because I desperately need a fucking break? (I say this with love.)
She's been accepted to the University of Kansas, the University of Southern Florida, and Providence College. She's had a campus visit to USF and the offer of some scholarship funds. She's declined a campus visit to KU since it's so familiar, but they've offered her a little bit of money as well. Providence College accepted her on "early action" and are evaluating some financial support as well. She's heading out for a visit there the second weekend in Feburary, where she'll get to attend a Big East basketball game (PC vs. USF, of all things) and receive some hospitality from my aunt.
No word yet from the University of Rhode Island. Now it's all about money, really. I want her to go AWAY to college, not because I want to get rid of her. Truly, it's about wanting her to break orbit. So we'll see. In the meantime, she's chomping at the bit, WANTING things and making us more than a little crazy.
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Date: 2012-01-10 05:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-01-10 08:38 pm (UTC)I tried to think of it as how Mama bird knows that it's time to push the baby bird out of the nest. :)
We've had similar ups and downs with the three that are somewhat/marginally/mostly out of the house. Then the hard part comes because they're used to independence and have to come home for school breaks. They have to be taught the rules of the house all over again (and again).
Good luck! Congrats on PB's acceptance so many places. Hopefully she'll get a good package that will allow her to go where she wants to go.
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Date: 2012-01-13 12:00 pm (UTC)How is it possible that both my children will be legal adults in exactly 97 days? I just gave birth to them, like, last week.
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Date: 2012-01-13 07:42 pm (UTC)